Wow, It feels good be writing something again. I was browsing through my own blog and looking at the time stamps and I said to myself “It’s been an year!!”
Many things have changed from the last time I wrote. Actually to be truthful my life has taken a complete twist.
I am not in college anymore…. no no they did not throw me out or something. I graduated. 
I would say I did well. Could have done better though for I had the potential to do better. But that is over now and I have to move ahead.
I work as a Senior Programmer in a reputed software company now, but of course the Programmer is a BIG misnomer . Life has become more hectic than what it was in college and of course more challenging.
Earlier there was just one thing on the mind or maybe two, marks and career. But now I am in the real world. I used to work many hours during my college days like I do today no doubt but it is different in its own sense. Have to catch a bus at 7:50, miss it and it would be trouble reaching office by 9. Once in office there is seldom the choice of leaving (remember college?) at a time you desire, though the leaving time is 6:20. But that means to say I am not home before 8 in the night. During this time there is 3 hours in the traffic.
My college road was traffic free and less congested, but the way to my office takes it all out of me. Come back, eat and directly to bed for if you remember there is that bus to catch at 7:50 and yes I am tired. I always used to think how people can get tired working on the computer, but trust me they do!
There are so many things to think of now.
- There is the career of course, need to good one – a secure one for the industry I am in is very unstable as people say but nor me nor my company have felt the tremors yet. So that puts me in a good position for now. But change is inevitable. Good or bad time will decide. But things will change soon.
- There is the money I need to think of now. I started to work and earn a long time ago. But all those were part time jobs and I was still studying and study was first thing I needed to worry about. Now I am full time employee and money is one of the priorities. Air and water are necessary for survival, but so is money in today’s world. There are so many dreams and aspirations and money becomes a small factor to fulfill them. Of course the guts and determination is more important to pursue your dream.
- There is something called family that comes in now. For I am not a college going student any more you see. And so there are responsibilities. Responsibilities that I already have and the wonderful responsibilities that I would take up in future. I am very fortunate on that front I would say.
- Need to build a house soon. The time for that seems to be approaching soon but it is eluding and I am chasing it till it surrenders.
- Then there is my weight. For in the last year I have really gone to a bad shape. I am working on it and the results are encouraging. I will pursue with this till I have it in control the way we want it to be.
I miss college days and Microsoft Student Community. It was a lot more fun in those days where I was learning something new every day. But now the knowledge today has become stagnant and that’s dangerous. Hence I have changed certain things about it which I will write about separately when the results are there to show.
How did I miss this, I had been Dubai for a Microsoft Interview last year. Just out of college and facing an interview with my dream company. I think I did fairly well but did not get selected for reasons unknown as usual. I am in a better position today to take that interview I would say. The only thing I lacked then is the confidence. That’s one thing that caused me to be a little on the back foot. I needed this job. This job that would seal my career and my life for two of us were dreaming for it. And that desperation caused the peril to my interview I guess. I have taken that as learning and am ready to face any interview now. It was quite an experience!!
Personal Life has been a Roller Coaster ride in the last one year. So many ups and downs, but this time I would leave the roller coaster and settle in the high valleys for I know like I never did before, what I really need to do. I have come to realize a lot of things in the last few days that I have been ignorant towards all my life. Things I know I did wrong and handled in the most kiddish way possible. But things that have taught me a lesson for the rest of my life and I am very thankful for that.
I plan to go back to college and study some more. Expand my horizons of knowledge and be better equipped to face this every so challenging and changing world. And more importantly than anything else, be a better person from within, have a mature head over the shoulder and deal with life situations with greater maturity than I have done in the past. No I am not going to learn Philosophy or something. I shall write soon.
I shall keep writing. For in writing down the thoughts, I have a way to preserve them. Like a pensieve of thoughts in Harry Potter.
